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02 February 2007 @ 12:22 am
My Life Sucks: A Symphony in Four Parts  
Those of you who just friended my LJ recently for whatever reason probably noticed that I never update. Well, no reason, I just don't. But hey, might as well today, because I need to vent and generally feel sorry for myself.

Prepare for whiny uncut emo shit (read: skip it).

Part One:
I hurt my arm working a soul-crushing job two years ago. Since then, I have been misdiagnosed, mistreated, written off, insulted, and manhandled by every medical professional that I know as I lived in increasing and nearly intolerable pain. Took up stress smoking habit shortly after I started that job. I lose the only job that was sympathetic to my condition, due to a combination of my steadily increasing pain and shitty office politics. Smoking habit increases to about half to three quarters of a pack a day.

Part Two:
Take a header on a freshly mopped kitchen floor before Christmas. Didn't think it was a problem, it just sucked. Finally get a doctor who knows what the fuck she's doing this week, and she finds not only my "mythical" arm problem, but that I have apparently herniated a couple of discs in my neck during the slip and fall. Find out I probably need to have two surgeries instead of just one. Smoking habit now well over a pack a day.

Part Three:
My health insurance is abruptly cut off in light of me now being 21 and unemployed, so now I know what's wrong and can't get it fixed. Being told by everyone to consult with a lawyer. Have taken up drinking.

Part Four:
Find out that my student loans are taking my income tax refund, leaving me penniless on top of everything else. People who are usually sympathetic suddenly trying to feed me "look on the bright side" crap that I don't want to hear, and ignoring my 50,000 other problems in favor of the "at least the student loan is paid off" thing. Drinking almost nightly to keep from jumping off the bridge and into the river. Or, considering the river is frozen, probably onto it.
thirtyangelsdead: ;_;ko0lchiki on February 2nd, 2007 12:03 pm (UTC)
I sympathize - I know how it feels to be unemployed and broke and I can only imagine how it feels to have other problems piled on top. I hope you feel better and find a way to get some things done right in this world.
chaoticsetchaoticset on February 2nd, 2007 04:56 pm (UTC)

Hey. You're not completely non-local, and I'm trying to learn how to be sociable with people. Want to try to hang out sometime? :/
A Guy Named Goo: Angel Little Drummer Girlaguynamedgoo on February 2nd, 2007 06:10 pm (UTC)
Sure. I am only about 15/20 minutes away from Bangor and I go there often. Maybe at the mall or Borders or something?
chaoticsetchaoticset on February 3rd, 2007 04:07 am (UTC)
:D Yes, that sounds peachy! How shall we coordinate?
A Guy Named Goo: Anthony Rapp Straight by pyralishaguynamedgoo on February 3rd, 2007 04:09 am (UTC)
I'm usually free on the weekends, if you want to make a date and time and that's good for you. We can meet at the benches in the middle of the mall or something (I'm easily recognizable: I carry a messenger bag with rainbow studs, which despite having bought it at that mall, is apparently not seen often).
chaoticsetchaoticset on February 3rd, 2007 04:10 am (UTC)
I'll provide you with some form of visual identification once we've established a timeframe. What's your gmail?
A Guy Named Goo: FE Let There Be Light by ohhellaguynamedgoo on February 3rd, 2007 04:13 am (UTC)
My e-mail address that I actually check obsessively (well, it auto-refreshes) is goo(at)puddleofgoo(dot)com.
r0s3l992 on February 2nd, 2007 10:39 pm (UTC)
Damn. Have never been in the situation that you describe, but you have a whole load of my sympathy, especially with the chronic pain thing, as that *is* something that I suffer. Here's hoping that your life gets sorted out soon. Wish I had some better advice to give you, really.